あかめ always!.

Special happiness =).

2008-10-04T17:21:49Z

Yamapi and I celebrated our 2nd monthsary =). He has been nice, understand and loving to me. The way he shows his affection are new and refreshing. He gave me 2 pink roses he says pink because it came from his heart LOL and 2 because it's our 2nd monthsary I thought it was cute of him because he said this to me in engrish haaha...his english has improved and I'm glad. I believe our relationships will grow. He had a concert on the same day soo I got the chance to see him play the guitar and sing live he was talented he moved me...and I'm falling each day he says he likes me and I think someday it will be LOVE and when that day comes I'll make sure to make it special not just for me but for the both of us.

MOUSE PEACE <3!.

2008-09-10T15:54:32Z

I will be seeing MOUSE PEACE Ueda Tatsuya Live Concert later tonight and I can't wait. If Ueda has another guest from KAT-TUN I would flip...and if it is KAME it would be my SOUL posting how the concert went LOL. Must buy the stunning PAMHPLET *_*
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P.S. I would also be seeing another 2 more concerts next week LOL. o_O

24hTV challenge! o_O

2008-09-01T18:03:32Z

So this year Arashi are the hosts, it was sad, interesting and fun at some part because it is a charity tv program. I just can't believe I manage to stayed up the whole entire time and ~~maybe~~ with mini sleeps at some part LOL. To have a little fun since they played many JE commercials I counted how many times they played KAT-TUN commercials and ~~KAT-TUN only~~ haaha gomen yes I am biased! 24hTV started at Aug. 30th 6:30pm and finishes at Aug. 31st 9:00pm. In total from 6:30pm till 5am they played ROHTO Lip KAT-TUN commercial 25 times and boy it boost me up whenever I saw it lol. Yes I am a SAD FANGIRL and I just can't help it. =)

[Contest Entry] P.S. I love you Chapter 10 + Epilogue

2008-08-31T17:12:29Z

[Contest Entry] P.S. I love you Chapter 9

2008-08-31T16:44:47Z

Title: P.S. I love you
Author: akam3lov3
Pairing: AKAME, MARUDA, KOKUNNO
Rating: R
Genre: Drama,Romance
Summary: Kamenashi Kazuya is a rich teenager who lives a very sheltered life and dreams of a normal life style. What will happen when this rich teenager crosses paths with a bad boy thief?
Author's Note: Thanks to sadaoru for BETA. And this is my first time entering a fic contest GANBARIMASU!!! =).

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Chapter Nine: Rendezvous

Junno looked over the dark building in front of him he wished he would never have to step foot on this territory but his master was inside and he needed to retrieve him. Junno ducked behind a metal barrel hiding his position as he contemplated walking up to the door and knocking on it casually. Junno shook his head thinking it was impossible as he felt a hand touch his shoulder making him freeze.

“Lost?” a man with black hair asked.

Junno moved to run when he felt shocks through his body silencing his scream in pain and making his vision grow dark.

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Subaru carried Kame in with ease as Ueda followed close behind feeling almost naked under everyone’s eyes. He walked into the regular hideout with nothing but his boxers on but still feeling confident about his body. Especially after the night he had spent with the older man. Nakamaru had told him many times just how gorgeous Ueda was. Ueda turned the corner spotting another small male on the floor with blonde hair.

“Who the hell is that!?” Ueda cried as he looked over the male carefully.

“How the hell should I know!? Just another rich brat or something! Either way it doesn’t concern you!” Subaru explained rudely as he turned to see he boyfriend at the doorway with a small cup of steaming hot coffee. The blond walked forward towards his lover moving over to welcome him home. Yassu glared at Ueda along the way noticing the man stood almost naked next to his boyfriend showing off his body to everyone. Suddenly, Yassu pretended to trip sending the boiling hot contents over Ueda’s chest making him hiss in pain.

“Oppsie…My bad…” Yassu smirked as he bit the tip of his finger innocently at Ueda making a familiar laughter fill the room.

“Well, well, well. Fabulous job Ueda! I knew you wouldn’t disappoint me…this time…” Yamapi spoke while clapping his hands at the end of his sentence as he entered the room. “Where is Jin?” Yamapi asked in angrily as Subaru reappeared throwing a set of clothes at the smaller man.

“He’s covering for me still…he’ll be here any minute…” Ueda managed out as he slipped the shirt over his head showing that it was too big for his small frame.

“Hmm…I see…” Yamapi spoke walking over to Kame and grabbing his chin tilting it up so Yamapi could inspect it. “The boy is beautiful…should be able to get a pretty penny from this transaction” Yamapi finished hearing a soft groan to his side. Yamapi stood leaving the cell to go back upstairs to wait for his lover’s return. “Make sure they don’t get out…and that includes you too Ueda. I’m not done with you yet!”

“Where am I?” Koki groaned as he rolled over onto his back and seeing men that he had never seen before surrounding him.

“Shut up! Stay still if you wanna live…understand?” Subaru informed the teen as he rolled over away from the angry looking man.

“I don’t need this shit! Do you know who I am?!” Koki asked standing but resting his eyes on a familiar face leaning up against the wall unconscious. “KAME!?!” Koki panicked rushing over to his side shaking the other lightly trying to wake him.

“God…I can’t stand spoiled brats! Their so annoying! Can we play with them for a while?” Yassu suggested asking Subaru for permission.

Yamapi walked through the darkened corridors looking for his lover. Suddenly, he heard the sounds of struggled grunting. Yamapi followed the sound until he heard his name cried out.

“Yamapi! I found this one…outside hiding or spying!” Ryo grunted as he struggled to pull the larger man inside. Junno had begun to become conscious again as he slapped Ryo’s hand away from his body.

“Give me my master! And I will leave!” Junno demanded as his speech slurred from the shocks he received earlier.

“Well…let’s see here…” Yamapi walked over grabbing a handful of the older man’s light brown hair. “Which one would be your master?” Yamapi asked as Junno looked around trying to catch a glimpse of his master somewhere. However, his vision blurred and doubled as he attempted to pry Yamapi’s hands from his hair.

“He asked you a question!” Ryo yelled kicking Junno in the back causing him to floor to the floor. Yamapi grabbed handfuls of the bodyguard’s hair dragging him down the stairs to the cell where Yamapi’s hostages were kept. Yamapi grabbed Junno’s face slamming it against the cold bars making everyone inside jump.

“Which one!?” Yamapi demanded waiting to hear the answer from the strange man.

“Kame’s here too! Something is very wrong here” Junno thought inwardly as he glanced over the heir to the Kamenashi Corporation. His eyes rested on someone who had blond hair as his vision blurred completely.

Koki watched in fear as the man who had been haunting his every thought had his face smashed against the cold bars again. Koki winced as the man standing jumped kicking Junno hard in the ribs continuously making him cry out in pain.

“STOP! STOP IT! PLEASE!” Koki felt himself run over to the bars grabbing through the gaps at Junno’s body trying to protect him.

“Oh…I see! I’m gonna have fun with this!” Yamapi yanked Junno’s body from Koki’s grasp making him hit the floor as Koki panicked inside.

“NO! PLEASE! WHAT DO YOU WANT!?” Koki cried still reaching out for his bodyguard as he watched Ryo kick him away from the cell.

“Tie him up…” Yamapi smirked patting the Osaka man on the bottom making him look over his shoulder burning his eyes into Koki’s as he delivered a few more blows to Junno’s ribcage.

Koki watched in pain as Junno’s wrists was tied to a pillar of the concrete foundation. Junno’s arms were spread open making a “Y” shaped pattern. Junno’s head hung between his arms limply showing his unconsciousness.

“Koki…it was Koki right?” Yamapi asked walking over to the cell crouching allowing his eyes to meet the teens. “You have two choices…you can either call your dear sweet daddy and tell him that I want money or…” Yamapi looked over his shoulder to his bodyguard smirking. “or you can watch me beat him to death…and just to warn you it’s not a pretty sight to watch…” Yamapi watched as Koki shook his head instantly but with his eyes remaining on Junno while Yamapi gave the teen his options.

“Koki don’t do it! I’ll be okay I-…” Junno’s voice was silenced as Ryo punched the human punching bag making Koki whimper out as tears fell from his eyes without him noticing.

“Please stop I’ll do whatever I have to do…” Koki whispered allowing Yamapi only to hear.
“Good choice…” Yamapi commended as he dropped Koki’s cell phone making the smaller reach for it.

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Jin woke from his peaceful sleep waiting to feel the warmth from the smaller in his arms. However, Jin felt nothing but the comfort on the sheets over his naked body. He sat up quickly looking around him if Kame was playing a joke on him. Jin bean to believe he had imagined the entire thing until he looked over his chest. A few small marks graced his chest making Jin smile as he remembered trying to teach Kame how to give him a proper hickey which only made Jin giggle as it tickled him.

“Kame….” Jin called out in a singy-song tone of voice smiling. Jin couldn’t wait to kiss him again. Jin looked at his cell phone to tell him the time and frowned at the early time. “7 am” Jin whimpered as he moved to get up. He figured Kame was off doing his school studies already or getting showered for the day ahead allowing Jin to plan out his own events.

Jin walked from the room after showering and dressing himself to venture down to Nakamaru’s room. He wanted to talk to his best friend and apologize again but also to set things straight. He wanted to think up a plan that would get them both out of this mess altogether.

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Nakamaru sat on the edge of his bed holding the small piece of paper that read “Everyone…Please forgive me…” on it. The older man wasn’t sure why the smaller kept pushing him away. After the night they had shared Nakamaru was wishing to have many more moments in his life time with the smaller. He had never felt more alive in his life as they made love over and over again until both were fully satisfied. Nakamaru gripped the paper in his hands as he buried his face in his hands.

It was yet another lover that had left him. Nakamaru couldn’t understand why everyone would leave him. Nakamaru heard a gentle knock on the door making his heart race. Had Ueda come back? Nakamru’s heart sank as he heard the knocker’s voice.

“Can I come in?” Jin asked through the door.

“Come in…” Nakamaru wrapped a sheet around his naked waist but leaving his back exposed to the younger man.

“Morning…oh ho ho! What happened in here?!” Jin smirked noticing the clothes tossed all over the floor around him.

“Nothing happened…” Nakamaru avoided eye contact feeling badly as he lied about the best night of his life. “I was hoping you could help me figure this out though…at first I thought it was addressed only to me but why would he write ‘everyone’?” Nakamaru asked handing Jin the paper.

Jin looked at Nakamaru knowingly. He knew the two men had slept together and the small hickey under his left nipple confirmed it. Jin’s eyes focused on the small paper reading the paper and feeling his stomach sink.

“Fuck! Show me Kame’s room…NOW!” Jin cried running from the room knowing Nakamaru was naked and waited for him outside. A few short seconds later Nakamaru ran from his room fully dressed but in clothes that Jin thought looked oddly familiar to him. Both men ran from the room and dashing towards Kame’s quarters. Nakamaru burst through the door cursing as he saw Kame nowhere in sight. He dashed to the bathroom to check as Jin’s knees felt weak. He was too late. Ueda had completed the job before Jin could even get a shoe in.

“What the hell is going on here!?” Nakamaru yelled at him as he emerged from the bathroom not finding the smaller. The bodyguard reached down and grabbed a handful of Jin’s collar and shaking him roughly. “Tell me the truth! No more lies! I can’t take it anymore from you or Ueda!” Nakamaru yelled feeling confused. Not only had he lost the man he wanted to be with but also his master.

“Ueda…and I…we’re…we steal for a living. We steal expensive things and deliver them to our boss and he gives us a cut from the profit. Kame and you where never part of us until I met him by mistake. I lo-…I love him I didn’t want this to happen! And Ueda…Ueda doesn’t just have sex with anyone! He must love you t-…”

“Look, I don’t care about feelings that might be empty. I was just an easy fuck for him and Kame was an easy fuck for you! Cut the crap and tell me where my master is!” Nakamaru threatened darkly making Jin’s hair stand on end.

“I only know one place but this will be hard. They want ransom money for Kame or they will kill both of them!”

“I only care if one of them makes it out alive!” Nakamaru growled lying to Jin and himself as he shoved the man back making him stubble and then chase after him.

“You don’t mean that! Kame has told me so much about you and I firmly believe you have feelings for Ueda! What good is lying about it!” Jin argued chasing after the bodyguard until Nakamaru spun on his heel glaring at Jin.

“Even if I did love him…he left, lied and betrayed me…what makes you think after all that I would want to pursue anything further with him?” Nakamaru admitted truthfully making Jin frown knowing what he was saying was right in the end.

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Kame woke up feeling instant pain spreading through his head. He groaned in response only to hear Koki’s voice calling out to him.

“Where am I?’ Kame spoke slowly unsure of his surrounding and why Koki was there. Kame’s eyes rested on Ueda as Ueda turned from Kame’s gaze. He was positive Ueda had done something to Kame in order to get him here.

“Kame! I’m so glad you’re finally awake! We’re going to be okay now…don’t worry! I called my dad and he’s on the way!” Koki spoke trying to reassure the other teen while trying to convince himself as well. Koki’s head snapped around hearing Junno grunt out in pain. Koki looked at Yamapi as he punched Junno repeatedly in the stomach.

“I hope your father hurries…time is of the essence…” Yamapi looked cruelly at Junno and then back at the teen. He watched as Junno’s eyes stayed fixed on the smaller as he spit out a mixture of saliva and blood. Yamapi smirked knowingly as he leaned close to Junno’s ear.

“Call me crazy but I-…” Yamapi began.

“You’re insane…” Junno spat with his eyes not leaving Koki.

“Let me finish!” Yamapi ordered slapping Junno’s cheek with the back of his hand. “Now…call me crazy but I think you’re in love with your master…am I right?” Yamapi asked making Junno finally look at him. “I’m right…” Yamapi confirmed as Junno said nothing.

“I see! Boys!” Yamapi called making everyone look at him. “It looks like the bodyguard is in love with his-…”

“Don’t say it! I beg of you please stop I will do anything just please stop!” Junno wriggled in his restraints trying to stop Yamapi from what he was about to say.

“Anything?!” Yamapi asked with a cruel smirk.

“Anything!” Junno replied.

“Hmmm…” Yamapi turned on his heel grabbing at the teen behind the iron bars only to have Koki try and slap his hands out of the way. “Come here!” Yamapi growled dragging the thrashing Koki towards Junno. Koki felt his stomach drop as his body guard looked worse as he got closer.

“Junno? Since you’ll do anything…I want you to tell him on your own!” Yamapi smirked as a cruel sneer moved over his lips making Junno widen his eyes in fear.

“Anything but that!”

“Nope…you said you’d do anything….” Yamapi chuckled releasing the smaller and throwing his body towards the one that was shackled.

Koki bumped into Junno’s body. Junno caught his fall even when he couldn’t. Koki looked up at the man he had known his entire life and felt tears well up in his eyes.

“Junno...I’m so sorry…I…” Koki reached up cupping Junno’s face in his hands.

“I’m waiting...” Yamapi spoke darkly as both watched him click the gun in his grip and press it to Junno’s temple. “Koki… Junno has something very important to tell you…Don’t you Junno?” Yamapi asked nudging Junno with the barrel of his gun. “Say it!”

“Koki…I…I’ve tried to hide this secret from you for the longest time as I was embarrassed and disappointed in myself…but I can’t carry the burden any longer…”Junno hung his head in shame only to have Koki lift his chin making him look at him.

“Junno?” Koki asked sweetly making Junno whimper in pain as Koki smiled weakly at him. “You came to my rescue…you tried to protect me like you always have…” Koki’s voice reached Junno’s ears allowing him to hear the sincerity. Yamapi nudged Junno harder threatening him.

“Koki…I….I’m in love with you…” Junno whimpered out quietly as fear moved through his body.

“What?! I don’t think we all heard you!” Yamapi exclaimed but Koki had heard him clearly.

Koki’s eyes burned up into Junno’s as Junno’s stared back. Koki’s heart began to beat faster as Junno’s eyes showed his shame and truth behind his words. Yamapi tugged back Junno’s blood soaked hair making him scream out in pain as Koki’s eyes panicked trying to calm the older man’s pain by stroking his cheeks. A loud cracking sound filled the room making Koki jump in surprise as Yamapi released Junno’s hair. Yamapi lifted the barrel of the smoking gun.

“J-…” Koki felt he had lost his voice as he felt something warm touch his fingertips. Koki looked down at his hands seeing the red substance drip from his fingertips. Koki began to feel panic flow through him as he watched the red spot grow across Junno’s white shirt making Koki reach forward placing his hands over the wound.

“I’m...s…sorry…” Junno breathed out as his body began to shake as shock hit the bodyguard’s senses.

“Shhh…shhh…things will be okay…Daddy will be here soon…” Koki tried to reassure the dying man in his arms as Koki’s panicked whimpers filled the room as his hands cupped at the wound trying to stop the blood that was easily flowing from him.

Kame watched from the iron bars as tears ran down his cheeks as he cried with no shame. He had also known Junno since he was a small child and seeing him take his last few breaths was hard for the teen.

“Junno? Junno please stay with me…! I need you….you know that…”Koki whispered as he pressed his forehead to the taller man’s. “If you leave me…I’ll have no one…do you want me to be alone?” Koki spoke quietly trying to get the older man to fight the pain that was entering his system.

Koki wasn’t sure what he was doing but Koki reached up on his tip toes pressing him lips to the older mans. Koki sensed that this would be the last time he would get to allow Junno to steal his first kiss. A metallic taste filled Koki’s mouth knowing it was the taste of Junno’s blood. Koki felt his body begin to get tugged away as he watched a soft smile move over Junno’s lips. Junno’s head fell unable to hold itself up any longer as Koki’s cries filled the room. Koki thrashed against Yamapi as he tossed him back behind the iron bars. Koki called out Junno’s name through his sobs as Kame grabbed the smaller hugging him tightly. Kame turned Koki’s head from the vision in front of him as Junno died in front of them. Kame rocked the smaller teen in his arms as screams mixed themselves with harsh sobs. Kame felt fear enter him not sure what was going to happen to the two of them now.

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“Do you know that skull ring Kame is always wearing?” Nakamaru asked seeing Jin nod his head from the corner of his eyes. “Well, it has a mini locator chip inside it so I will always know where he is” Nakamaru tossed a laptop into Jin’s lap. “Does this place look familiar to you?’ Nakamaru asked slowing the car to a red light.

Jin looked over the screen feeling fear spread throughout him. It was the location to his boss’ hideout which meant that he already had Kame in his possession. Nakamaru followed the directional navigation system telling them they had arrived. Nakamaru turned off the engine allowing the car to roll to a stop in the darkness.

“I need to go in there alone. They’re expecting me to come like I was part of Ueda’s plan. Please just call the police” Jin explained.

“Will do!” Nakamaru confirmed as he felt fear for his master enter his system. “And Jin…good luck. Please protect Kame with everything you got but it’s not like I have to remind you…” Nakamaru encouraged as he watched Jin close the door.

Jin entered the hideout like he normally would pretending like he was having a normal day at the office. Jin paused as he saw the body of a man hanging suspended by the wrists and a pool of blood under him. Jin had remembered he had seen the man once but why was he here?

“Good work Jin!” Subaru spoke up walking over patting Jin on the back.

“Welcome back Jin! I knew you and Ueda wouldn’t mess this one up! I mean Kamenashi Corporation?! How did you manage to pull it off!?” Yassu asked annoying Jin as he smirked and nodded his head at the man.

Kame sat there looking at the man he loved through the iron bars. Koki was laying on the cold floor with his head in Kame’s lap. Kame stroked his hair softly as Koki had exhausted himself into a deep sleep still whimpering and mewing out Junno’s name. Kame noticed how Jin looked over at Ueda through the bars as Ueda turned his gaze away from the other man.

“Well, we all know Jin right? When he wants something he gets it” Ueda cruelly looked at his best friend but his eyes begged for Jin to trust him.

“Let me guess you got the kid in bed too?” Ryo asked.

Kame’s heart like it was torn into many pieces as Jin didn’t reply. Jin looked over at Yamapi as he gave him a cruel smirk in response.

“I’ll take that as a yes!” Yamapi spoke walking towards the small cage. Yamapi crouched down looking at Kame closely then cupping his face to make him look at the man that holding him captive.

“You know you’re very beautiful right?” Yamapi asked as Kame moved his face from Yamapi’s grasp only to have him grab his chin tightly making Kame whimper in pain.

“I mean…this is Akanishi Jin we’re talking about here! The king of bedding anything that walks! I’m just surprised you’ve moved to the world of men now! So Jin…does he taste as good as he looks?” Yamapi asked softly licking over Kame’s cheek making him shiver in disgust. “Did he tell you he loved you too?” Yamapi smirked cruelly towards the teen making tears well up in his eyes. Kame tried not to believe what he was hearing but it was hard as he looked up at Jin who still hadn’t moved or said anything.

“Listen up…Kame is different!” Jin barked suddenly. He was unable to watch Kame get humiliated in front of anyone. Subaru quickly punched Jin across the face making him stumble from the force. Yassu jumped quickly grabbing Jin’s arm and twisted it up behind his back making Jin fall to the floor n his knees.

“Alright Jin…you leave me no choice!” Yamapi moved from the cell crouching down beside the man Kame loved and cupped Jin’s face pointing it towards the teen.

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Nakamaru had called the police and watched as they slowly and quietly ambushed the building. Nakamaru wished that the innocent people inside the building had remained safe. Even Ueda. Nakamaru wised to talk things out with Ueda one things were done and over with.

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A loud beeping rang through the building signalling the gang that there were trespassers. Koki jumped from his position on the floor his eyes still clouded with tears as he refused to turn and see the sight of the man still hanging in front of the cage.

“Jin you fucker! YOU DID THIS!” Yamapi spoke slapping Jin’s face hard. “Get the kid!” the boss yelled at Ryo as he ran into the next room to retrieve the laptop that contained all of his work. Ueda ran over untying Kame’s hands and turning to throw a punch at the raven haired man.

“Koki we have to run okay! You have to do this with me this is our last chance!” Koki nodded and grabbed Kame’s hand as he saw the man still hanging from the corner of his eye. They both sprung to their feet running quickly into the darkness of the building. Ryo stuck his arm through the bars of the cage pointing his loaded gun at the teen. Jin jumped grabbing Ryo’s arm and snapping it down with force on the bar that ran across breaking it instantly but setting the gun off at the same time.

“I have to go back!” Kame spun around fearing the worst as Koki looked at him scared and shaking his head. Kame ran back in the direction he had fled from only to see Jin lying in his own puddle of blood as he struggled to stand. Police now flooded the area as Kame ran over to Jin’s side crying freely.

“Please…please lay still…” Kame urged as he attempted to help his lover sit up.

“I’m sorry…Kame I didn’t tell you the truth…I lied about a lot…but I never lied about one thing…” Jin struggled to speak as blood flowed quickly from his shoulder blade. “I never lied about loving you…I just wish I could have meet you earlier…You helped me let my guard down…allow the real me to be found out…” Jin continued letting everything he always wanted to say to the teen to pour from him now.

“Jin…please…shhh….help is here…just hang on…” Kame urged as Jin reached up to gently caress Kame’s cheek.

“I love y-…” Jin ‘s breath left him as his fingers slid from Kame’s cheek tainting the teens face with blood stripes as his hand fell to his side making Kame cry out in pain as he cradled the man in his arms.

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Author's Note: GAMBARIMASUUU!!!! Please keep reading and ENJOY~. gives pockies* =)

[Contest Entry] P.S. I love you Chapter 8

2008-08-31T16:13:18Z

TOKYO DOME = 6 HOURS<3!!!

2008-08-03T02:50:23Z

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Excited as HELL! and since this is my ~~last KAT-TUN concert~~ (sadly) I will finally post both of my FAN REPORTS! lol including FAN CAMS hopefully if YOUTUBE doesn't give me shits like last time...kkkyyyaaaa AKAME HERE I COME AGAIN<3!

Ureshii desu!

2008-07-27T17:34:27Z

Alright being here in Japan I never thought I will encountered the "LOVE or LIKE" thing to be honest..but I had meet a very special guy named Yamapi. His sweet, nice, talented and cute. He plays the guitar and is a lead singer of a band. We hanged out a lot and enjoys each other's company. He knew I would only be here for 6 months and he always asks if I'm coming back. He knows the answers so I thought we should just keep it to the "friendszone only". Everyone says I should express my feelings anyway but I don't usually say it first its actually the opposite way I got used to boys saying they like me first, so for me to say it first would be really hard.

Most of the time we will talk about random things mostly about music and KAT-TUN lol. He knows I am a diehard fan of Kamenashi Kazuya/KAT-TUN. He knows I write stories but not boysxboys haaha.

Things I've done with him isn't normal apparently...lol

-Went to Asakusa together
-Went for a drive together at 3:30 in the morning by the beachside
-Dinner double date
-Has matching necklace together
-Went to hanabi (firework festival) together
-Text messages everyday

So yesterday we went to the one of the biggest firework festival so it was insanely crowded he held my hands because he didn't to lose me and thats understandable ne..demo when it was not crowded anymore he fixed it to the "proper way of holding hands" which confused me but yet it made me really happy. The whole time we watched we held hands even when he dropped me home. We stopped by the park and I was going to confessed but I choked and struggled badly but he knew somehow because when I turned around he pulled me back and said "He likes me too" LOL. I apologies to him but I told him I will say it to him when I'm ready. He understood and hugged me so this means we both liked each other which I'm very happy about..this doesnt make us a couple yet but we are both sharing something special.

KAME<333.

2008-07-23T17:31:43Z

I swear I fcuking LOVE this boy, Kame always know how to make my heart all doki doki LOL. He is too GOOD to be TRUE!<3.

Kanjani8 fangirls gone wild! lol

2008-07-19T10:46:25Z

While waiting for the line to go inside the subway after seeing KANJANI8 in Tokyo Dome we decided to do this and since SOUSUKE from last of friend (Ryo's character) appeared in the concert I thought I'll give him some LOVE and start beating up my friend ^^. People thought we were funny they even took pictures and videos of us. They also talked to us in ENGRISH it was awesome. =)

HAPPY DAYS!!!<333

2008-07-03T15:30:32Z

Omedetou Otanjoubi Bakanishi-kun to Massu-kun~ =)

whoa Jin had learned and growned soo much which makes me soo proud of him! ~~it didnt help that I saw him up close while he says "konbanwa" to me without his mic while waving.~~ Massu's voice is getting better and better, his smiles always shines. Good Luck with everything and best wishes always!

P.S. I'm going to see

K8 in Tokyo Dome this Sunday!

KAT-TUN SENDAI* = 11 hours!!!

2008-06-27T18:43:55Z

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ME, sadaoru, eupi made our own CANADIAN uchiwas

back side of mine =)

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2008-05-30T13:51:55Z

OMFG KAT-TUN YOU AND ME SENDAI JUNE 28, 2008.

"AKAME here I come!" =D fhidgopjopskdflksadl; <333.

Crazy Love: Chapter Five

2008-05-13T10:50:00Z

Title: Crazy Love: Chapter five
Author: akam3lov3
Pairing: Akame, Maruda, Nakame, Jinda, Kokunno.
Summary: Love is complicated, but will they all find happiness?
Author’s Notes: This is going to be my first multichaptered fanfic so I hope this goes well. Also thanks a bunch sadaoru for BETA it for me. ENJOY~!

Chapter Five: Maybe love is like luck. You have to go all the way to find it

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Nakamaru ran down the hallway chasing after the offended and heartbroken male. As he got closer the beat boxer felt his feet suddenly become heavier and his chest began to hurt where his heart was. Was this the way he was supposed to be feeling? Nakamaru slowed his paced and walked up behind the smaller male. The taller reached out to entwine his fingers into the limp hand at Kame’s side.

“Kame, it’s alright...I’m going to be here from now on...” Nakamaru tried to reassure the hurting male even though he, himself, wasn’t convinced. Nakamaru tugged on the smaller hand in his to pull Kame into a tight embrace. Kame didn’t move but just allowed the other to hold him. Now, more than ever, he needed comfort and Kame couldn’t have chosen a better person for the job as he fell more into the tight embrace.

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“I HATE YOU!!!!” Ueda screamed down at Jin in a near state of shock. He pressed his back against the wall and slid down the wall until his bottom reached the floor. Ueda felt lost and unwanted as he pulled his knees up to his chest and burying his face into his knees. He wished the floor would open up and shallow him whole so he could disappear to a world where pain didn’t exist.

Koki and Junno stood there in confusion. They had just watched Ueda scream and collapse to the floor in pain. To say they were confused would be an understatement at this point but they kept silent. The hall was filled with silence as the happy couple stood not knowing what to make of the situation. Junno felt the grip on his hand tighten as he looked down at his distressed boyfriend. Junno knew how soft hearted Koki was and watched as Koki opened his open to say something. Junno gently squeezed his lovers hand making him instantly look up at him in confusion. Junno merely shook his head in reply. This was something only the four of them would be able to solve and Junno did not want their relationship to also be put at stake. Junno began to walk away from the scene to their dressing room knowing his boyfriend was looking over his shoulder, at the other band mates, the entire way.

Once their other band-mates passed silence filled the hallway once again until Ueda heard Jin moving. Next, was the sound of Jin’s boots pounding against the marble floor and Ueda buried his face deeper into his knees. He knew this would happen but he prayed it wouldn’t but it had. He knew Jin could never be without Kame but it was easier to think, for a while, that he could.

”And who is chasing you Ueda....No one...” Ueda sat and cried harder as his subconscious was completely right in this case.

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“I’m worried...I don’t like seeing my best friends in such pain...” Koki spoke softly to his boyfriend as the taller slid his hands over Koki’s shoulders trying to comfort him.

“I know but do you want the same thing to happen to us if we get dragged into that fight?” Junno asked in similar concern while bringing logic to his statement.

The couple stood in the doorway of their dressing room contemplating whether or not to interfere with the current events taking place in their friend’s lives. Suddenly, the couple watched as Jin ran past them and down the same hallway as Kame and Nakamaru.

“Now can we go check on Ueda!?” Koki asked distressed, looking down the hallway at where the brunette would be, knowing the smaller was alone and needing comfort right now.

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Jin ran until he caught sight of the pair in front of him. There stood Nakamaru and Kame in a tight loving embrace. Jin felt his blood begin to boil as rage spread throughout his body. His rage surfaced as his left fist met the nearest wall. He refused to look at the couple again as he spun on his heel running back to where he came from. Back to Ueda.

“Ueda! Ueda get up! Now!” Jin ordered knowing the other was going to ignore him. “Look! I want Kame and I know you want Nakamaru! I know I hurt you but I need your help in order for this to work. So let’s get them back!!” Jin spoke trying to sound as positive as he could at this point. Jin outstretched his hand to the smaller offering him help up from the floor.

Ueda looked up at the man who had just caused him the most pain experienced in his life and weakly smiled. “Let’s do it!” Ueda spoke aggressively as he stood bedside Jin ready for their new battle ahead. Ueda was going to give it all he had to get back the one he loved and cherished most.

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Kame moved back from his position on Nakamaru’s chest to look into his eyes. Was he what Kame was waiting for? Would Nakamaru love him like he wanted to be loved?

“Are you my happiness?” Kame asked the other in a soft voice trying to hide his own confusion.

“I...I hope so...” Nakamaru answered uncertain of his own decisions at this point. He smiled down at the actor with his own convincing smile.

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To say Ueda felt awkward entering Jin and Kame’s apartment would’ve been an understatement. He walked over the plush carpeting and sat comfortably on the sofa. He took a moment to look over his surroundings in amazement.

“It’s so clean!” Ueda complimented in surprise.

“Yeah, Kame does all the work around here! He loves to clean and I love to tease him by throwing things all over the floor right after he finishes!” Jin beamed as he spoke about the other male. Suddenly, he paused. “Have I lost him?” Jin contemplated aloud only to feel arms embrace him from behind. “I miss him already...” Jin spoke as a frown formed on his face as tears began to well up in his eyes.

“Don’t worry! We’ll get them back!” Ueda tried to sound optimistic at this point as he lifted Jin’s chin with his index finger. “I promise!” Ueda then gently kissed Jin’s temple causing him to weakly smile at the other male.

“You’re right!” Jin beamed. “Let’s celebrate with take out!” Jin smiled as he flipped open his cell-phone calling the delivery line.

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Nakamaru and Kame had finally left the photo-shoot location after being scolded by the Johnny’s Associates for their misconduct and behaviour during the shoot. Nakamaru offered the young actor a ride home after seeing Jin’s car was already gone. The atmosphere in the car was heavy and neither man talked until Kame’s small sneeze broke the silence.

“You know what they say about when you sneeze, right?” Nakamaru smirked glancing at the male to his left. “Maybe it’s Jin who is talking about yo-...”

“He's probably talking badly about me to Ueda...but that wouldn’t surprise me” Kame spoke suddenly cutting of Nakamaru’s sentence. The smaller male didn’t turn to look at Nakamaru as he spoke. Instead, he continued to look out the side window until Nakamaru pulled the car over to the side of the road.

“Listen, Kame, I can understand if you don’t want to spend the night at my house but at least consider allowing me to drive you to a hotel or your parent’s house” Nakamaru asked softly making sure not to push the other male over the edge. The day had been long and emotionally stressful for everyone. Nakamaru turned in his seat and gently smiled at Kame awaiting his reply.

“I’m fine with wherever I guess...I’m just...really tired that’s all...” Kame replied smiling weakly towards the older male. He wasn’t surprised by Nakamaru’s gentle and caring nature. He was like that with everyone and Kame understood completely why Ueda would love and want to be with Nakamaru. Nakamaru released a heavy sigh and started the engine once again driving them to the only place he knew, Ueda and his own apartment.

When they arrived, Kame felt a bit awkward as he entered the apartment. He looked around to gather his surroundings only to feel a twinge of quilt. Happy pictures of the couple sat on the side table next to the sofa as Kame sat down. Kame looked over the photo only to smile back at the faces trapped in time.

“They look so happy” Kame contemplated when suddenly Nakamaru rounded the corner. Kame quickly placed the photo frame back on the table before the taller noticed and smiled up at the caring man. “It...It smells really good in here!” Kame beamed up at Nakamaru complimenting the apartment.

“Yeah...” Nakamaru smiled weakly rubbing at the back of his head shyly. “Ueda loves this smell, so do I, so he always sprays it right before he leaves the house so that when he comes home the scent is still here...waiting...for..him...” Nakamaru paused as he realised he was speaking about Ueda. He looked up at the door slightly hoping that it would open and Ueda would come walking through. However, he knew it wouldn’t. Ueda was with Jin right now...

“Well, anyways, what do you want for dinner?” Nakamaru realised he had made the atmosphere even more awkward as he suddenly looked up at the fidgeting Kame.

“Actually, I can cook you something instead!! At home I’m always the one that cooks! That’s why Jin is so fat!” Kame chuckled but cleared his throat quickly realising he mentioned Jin. “Then again....anything is good!” Kame tried to reassure the older man.

“Home cooking!” Nakamaru beamed. “I’ve always wanted to taste Kame’s treasured home cooking!”

“Okay!” Kame spoke excited as he hopped up from his spot on the sofa and guiding Nakamaru to sit in the same spot. “You stay here...and I’ll go cook!” Kame winked cutely at the older man as he walked off into the kitchen. Kame walked into the kitchen glancing at the purple and blue aprons hanging side by side but Kame glanced away and chose the purple one. He clapped his hands together before opening the fridge. He was going to make Nakamaru the best food he had ever made in his life and try to have him forget all about Ueda.

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Jin finished paying the delivery man as he turned to look at the sneezing Ueda. Jin had decided on Chinese food since Kame usually didn’t like it which meant they never ate it. So, Jin took advantage of the situation.

“You know what they say about sneezing!” Jin smirked as he passed Ueda walking into the dining room.

“I highly doubt Nakamaru is talking about me right now...” Ueda frowned slightly.

“I bet you he isssss” Jin teased in a singy-song kind of voice. Jin began taking out food as Ueda sat down at the table smiling.

“Nakamaru and I ate Chinese food yesterday! He ordered it knowing how much I love it!” Ueda beamed reaching over to grab an overflowing container of food. “Itadakimasu!” the boxer chimed happy breaking apart the pair of wooden chopsticks.

“You can sleep in my bed and I’ll sleep on the couch!” Jin smiled weakly at the other male. He was committed to getting Kame back in his life but he had to admit Ueda could sometimes be very tempting. Jin watched the older as Ueda ate quickly slurping noodles up into his mouth nodding in agreement to Jin’s statement.

Ueda looked up and began to laugh as he pointed at Jin’s face. Jin’s expression turned from admiration to confusion as he backed away from his plate.

“What!?” Jin yelped.

“There’s rice on your cheek!!!” Ueda giggled as he leaned over and flicked off the grain of rice embarrassing Jin.

“I’ll...go get the drinks” Jin spoke embarrassed as he retreated to the kitchen.

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Nakamaru leaned against the doorframe quietly admiring the small male in his kitchen cooking. Nakamaru watched as he dashed back and forth from the counter to the dinner table. The beat boxer couldn’t quite understand the bright smile spread over Kame’s lips. Was he thinking about him? Or Jin? Was he happy to be here with him? Kame turned his back to Nakamaru still not realising the older man’s presence. Nakamaru took a step forward finally allowing his body to do what it wanted.

The taller stood directly behind the smaller as he gently hummed a familiar tune. Nakamaru’s arms came up and loosely wrapped them around Kame’s waist. Nakamaru leaned forward allowing his body to press against Kame’s back. He felt the smaller freeze and tense up in his arms
“You look cute in my apron” Nakamaru smirked speaking quietly against the shell of the actor’s ear sending shocks throughout his body.

Kame’s weak spot was his neck and ears and he was sure that if Nakamaru continued things would progress in a different way then what Kame wished. Suddenly, Kame felt it. The soft kisses placed right under his earlobe. Kame’s knees felt weak as he felt Nakamaru’s lips trail over his skin. Kame’s knuckled turned white as he gripped onto the counter’s ledge. He felt his body temperature begin to heat up as he forced himself to turn in Nakamaru’s arms to face him. He lifted a plate up between their chests to signify the completed food.

“Okay...” Kame spoke weakly wanting to get into want his body wanted but listening to his logic first. He wanted things to be different between him and Nakamaru. Things with Jin were always sexual in a way and he knew how different Nakamaru was from Jin. He wanted the loving caring relationship he knew Nakamaru would give him. “Food is ready!” Kame smiled weakly at the beat boxer awaiting to hear a disappointed grunt but instead Kame looked up only to see Nakamaru’s happy smiling face.

“I’m so excited to try it!” Nakamaru took the plate from Kame’s hands and retreating to the table only to sneeze along the way.

“You know what they say about when you sneeze right?” Kame spoke repeating what Nakamaru had asked him earlier on in the evening making him wonder if Ueda was talking about Nakamaru to Jin.

“That I might be getting a cold?” Nakamaru honestly and innocently answered back to Kame which resulted to Kame smacking his own forehead. He had forgotten who he was talking to for a minute. Kame forgot how innocent Nakamaru could really be. His body suddenly began to heat up as it remembered Nakamaru’s lips on his skin. Kame was instantly reminded how non-innocent he could also be.

“This looks soooo good! I can’t wait to dig in!” Nakamaru spoke happily as he put down is plate but ran over to Kame’s side to pull out his chair. Kame looked at Nakamaru shocked. Not once had Jin ever pulled out his chair awaiting for him to sit down. He sat down watching the over grown kid run back to his spot and happily cry out ‘Itadakimasu!’ but Kame watched as he paused.

“You don’t have to sit there and drool! It’s all for you!” Kame spoke lovingly.

“Shush you!” Nakamaru beamed as he shovelled a large spoon full into his mouth only making Kame chuckle in response as Nakamaru cried out a few couple ‘Yumaiiii’ between bites.

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Ueda cleaned the table as he heard the shower begin to run. Jin had told him he was going to take a shower to relax his body. As Ueda had finished his chore and walked over to Jin’s sofa to relax and took out his cell-phone on the way. Ueda flopped down onto the plush sofa gazing at the small device in his hand. The screen had a picture of Nakamaru and himself smiling back at him. When had he lost him? Ueda gently stroked his index finger over the small picture. He wanted Nakamaru back in his life.

“Your turn!” Jin chimed as we peaked around the corner in a towel only motioning that the shower was free for Ueda to now use.

“Thanks..”Ueda replied in a sad tone as he pain the pain rise through his chest. He wanted his Nakamaru.

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“Ahhh!!” the beat boxer leaned back in his chair stretching. “I’m sooo full!” Maru spoke happily while rubbing his stomach.
“Well, you can go take a shower and I’ll clean up here!” Kame suggested while smiling happily at Nakamaru.

Nakamaru stood blushing brightly as he headed off in the direction to the bathroom. Kame retreated to the living room and reached into his bag for his cell-phone. He opened it hoping to have something awaiting him from Jin. Kame smirked knowing there would be nothing and sure enough, there was nothing. Kame sat on the sofa again only to look around and feel the guilt wash over him again. Everything they owned was in pairs or together. Dvds stacked in piles according to who’s was who’s, shoes placed happily side-by-side, pictures showing how happily they were together placed tastefully around the room. Kame hated that he didn’t have the same things in his life...until now.

“Your turn!” Nakamaru happily spoke snapping Kame from his thoughts as he walked confidently towards the beat boxer. Kame paused and stood on his tiptoes to gently kiss the older man’s lips. Kame smiled playfully as he closed the door behind him to the bathroom leaving the beat boxer to feel completely surprised by the smaller male’s actions.

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Ueda stepped from Jin’s bathroom towelling off his hair only to spot Jin in the living room fixing the couch with blankets for him to use.

“You don’t have to sleep there, Jin. We are both adults, we can still share the same bed as long as we don’t do anything” Ueda spoke truthfully only causing Jin to blush a different shade of red.

“It’s alright...I sleep here all the time maybe that’s why Kame hates me...how I wish I could’ve done things differently” Jin sighed sadly trying to be strong but all he wanted to do was sit and cry.

“Cheer up! We’ll get through this and things will be just like it used to be!” Ueda spoke trying to stay positive and optimistic even if he was feeling the same as Jin. “I promise!” Ueda said as he gently punched Jin’s shoulder blade.

“I guess...you’re right” Jin sighed as he leaned over and kissed the shorter males forehead. “Well...goodnight...”Jin smiled as Ueda nodded and wished him the same. Ueda climbed into the bed only to be greeted by Kame’s smell. It was a scent that was only Kame’s and now Ueda had to sit there and be reminded that Kame was probably in his bed tonight maybe having the thoughts.

“Goodnight..Nakamaru...” Ueda thought quietly looking out the window waiting for sleep to claim him.

Jin sat on the living sofa staring at the closed door to his own bedroom knowing Ueda was in there now. Something Jin had always wished for but now wanted things to be the complete opposite. He wanted his Kame.

“Goodnight Kame...I love you” Jin thought hoping Kame would hear him as he took out his cell-phone.

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Kame stepped from the bathroom only to look up and see Nakamaru standing there. Nakamaru looked a little nervous as his fingers played with the light blue towel in his hands.
“You can...sleep in my bed...I’ll sleep on the couch...” Nakamaru stuttered slightly as he looked around nervously trying not to make eye contact as he knew Kame was looking up at him with his piercing brown eyes.

“Nakamaru... look at me...” Kame spoke gently cupping the older man’s face to have him look at him. Nakamaru’s eyes were filled with so many emotions it was hard for Kame to look into them. “It’s fine to share the same bed...I always need someone to sleep with me or I won’t be able to sleep peacefully...” Kame freely admitted.
Kame slid his hands down to meet Nakamaru’s entwining his fingers with the long gorgeous tapered fingers as he guided Nakamaru into his own room. Kame sat on the bed and gently patted at the spot beside him. Nakamaru hesitantly lied down beside Kame unsure if it was right. Kame rolled over to look at the beat boxer even though the room was in darkness Kame could still tell Nakamaru was nervous.

“Goodnight Nakamaru...” Kame whispered as he gently kissed the older man’s cheek.
“G...goodnight” Nakamaru stuttered as he tried to relax next to Kame but felt himself tense up as he felt Kame’s head press against his chest. Nakamaru smiled down at the smaller male but turned to look out his window at the night sky filled with Tokyo’s night lights and sighed.

“Goodnight...Ueda” Nakamaru couldn’t help to think.

“Goodnight Jin...” Kame thought as he felt Nakamaru’s fingers slide through his wet hair.

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A soft drumming noise began to rumble through Nakamaru’s dreams waking him up. He reached over on his bed side table to pick up his cell-phone. He flipped it open only to receive a message from Jin.

”Make sure Kame doesn’t sleep alone...he won’t sleep peacefully” Nakamaru looked down at the smaller male that was sound asleep on his chest as Nakamaru hit the reply button.

“Make sure all lights are off...that way Ueda sleeps better”
Nakamaru clicked his phone closed as he felt his ache for the longest time and for the first time he regretted his actions.

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Authors Note: Sorry for the long wait I'm finally here in Japan and I just got settled soo I hope you guys still read this fic I will be updating like normal days and I'm sorry again for the time being next chapter will have a banner and a one shot called "Love juice without notice" its going to be my first SMUT soo stay tune haha.

Cartoon KAT-TUN on my TV!!!

2008-05-07T17:00:25Z

I just finished watching CARTOON KAT-TUN cute episode by the way =) and its now 1:32 am here in JAPAN! they play them soo LATE and there was just a SMALL EARTHQUAKE its insane haaha. but anyways here is the latest NEW SINGLE CM! ENJOY~

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JAPAN!!!

2008-05-07T04:10:02Z

GOMEN! for posting sooo late lol. but apparently i arrived here during GOLDEN WEEK sooo like no school or work everyone ish OUT! sooo it was hectic FUN!<3. the long flight killed me though haaha one side of my body was hurting 11 hours and 23 mins. o_O. i got to see sadaoru she picked me up at the airport and we will be living together in this lovely house =D. this is where my SPAMS start:

Our house looks amazing and the neighbourhood looks very decent like small loving friendly atmosphere! but everything closes sooo EARLY o_O. and we live pretty close to the station which ish good and there are MOS burger, McDonalds, a 24 hour family mart and a BANK close by! lol and many many of DRINKS vending machines. haaha i also get too meet very friendly people Koji-kun, Nami-chan, YamaPI-kun, Hiroshi-kun, Koba-chan and more. and i get to go to this japanese learning class every tues and thurs. and then after we watch LAST OF FRIENDS<3 RYO kyyaaa i was soo embrassed i spazz in front of ALL of these people. and like anything JE CMS i spazz haaha and when i got to watch Music station in my own TV i had a heart attack KAT-TUN performing Dont u ever stop!!! and cartoon KAT-TUN<333 tonight. and this friday music station again NewS performing Summer time<3.

I went to OSAKA with sadaoru to see KANJANI8 con. but apparently the ticket we got was only one ticket soo we end up selling the one ticket and just bought K8 goodies we might go to a summer con. instead. but the most highlight part was Me and sadaoru going to a K8 con. with our KAT-TUN sweaters!!!! haaha some people liked it and some laugh but we didnt really care! lol then we went to NANBA and damn soooo many HOTTIES like nosebleeds haaha. we were suppose to go to the aquarium but since it was golden week it was PACKED. were definietly coming back to OSAKA! Osaka castle ish COOL lol and like were heading up there someone was selling arts and there was a KAME one i wanted it soo i waited when we got there it was GONE!!! T_T there was bunch of AU arashi ads LAWSON NewS ads and YAMAPI toshiba ads and its HUGE lol. we went to the arcade and try to win something but it was HARD haha. and we also went inside this NINJA PLACE and it was soo JOKES and this stupid MAGICAL TUNNEL if you ever see that dont go in its a RIP OFF! oh and get we to throw REAL SHURIKEN it was aweome and hard to throw o_O haaha and the train was a long ride so i slept the whole entire time haaha i guess because im still not use to the time difference.

I went to watch SUSHI OUJI the movie and I LOVE ITT!!!!..although i cried to the KOWATARO part and laughed my ass off with TSUKASA's engrish i saw Jun's last princess ads =)

KAT-TUN's PLUS X lotte gum ish HELLA GOOD!!! lol

I also went to ASAKUSA it was soo much FUN. there was this unofficial JE store and guess what? it was surrounded by MALES!!! haaha and i got a BAD LUCK fortune DAME DAYO~ lol.

I went to HARUJUKU and gah i was DYING!!! too many HOTTIES i never seen soo many in MY LIFE!!! and im not LYING. o_O and there was not much cosplayers maybe because it was not SUNDAY or because we came too LATE lol but i get to hug this HOTTIE! =D. haaha

And i will be meeting well set up with someone named HAYATO!!! lets see the out comes of this one LOL.

JAPAN rocks!!! lol. but i need to practice my reading, writing, listening because they speak FAST and my talking well responding because i learn through anime and dramas and its not GOOD! haaha. GANBARIMASU! =D. and since im settled in i will updates the rest of my FICS!!

here are some of my pics:

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Sushi Ouji ads

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Arashi AU ads for you and random AIBA and JUN kawaii_beela

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Lawson NewS ads

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Yamapi Toshiba ads

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The KAME art i didnt get to buy T_T

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Asakusa

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the Aquarium place

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OSAKA castle and inside above the castle

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the front house at night

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Osaka JO-hall

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sadaoru's way of welcoming me to MY ROOM!

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flight random SHOT lol

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huge pikachu for you jun_x_kohta and host clubs haaha

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me in harujuku shrine

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the ninja place

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NEVER AGAIN! lol BEWARE its a RIP OFF

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AKAME on my TV! lol

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KAT-TUN MUSIC STATION (short version) and performance lol

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HOT guy i get to HUG! lol.

Last Farewell...

2008-04-30T08:06:49Z

Well..I will leave in like 5 hours from now and i am fcuking EXCITED ~~SCARED~~. Today was FUN slight SAD! =). because:

- My lovely niece had to go to grandma's place soo i had to say bye to her first she soo cutee she helped me with the laundry and i get to see her first walk before i leave i feel special lol when i said bye and kissed her she cried soo i closed the door it was hard i looked again the car was gone...

- I get to go out with hikarichang, ritchieflip, and rickcir we went to pmall cruised around, eat, PURIKARA then bubble tea. the foods were disappointing LOL. i went to give bracelets/ankle bracelets to each one because of my "culture" lol. and each must give me something in return, well this one was highlights ritchie gave me a bracelet rick-kun was CHU with ~~germs~~ haaha (jokes) because he was sick and most important teresa who gave me her assignment LOL. after eating we did purikara all four then me and rick-kun only, like they all say i gave the same face expression thats because i was SHY LOL. then bubble tea with SHAMPOO LOL. randomness then goodbyes i felt sad when one by one said goodbyes and rick-kun drag me to the wrong way haaha. gah im going to miss you guys hugs* T_T next purikara WATCH OUT~ =p.

- I went to say goodbyes to my cousins, auntie and uncle...with em long lectures haha.

- Akira (my awesome sis) had to worked soo i dropped by to say bye to the most important person in my lifee first we joked around then we hugged for the longest time she couldnt look at me because i knew she was crying then she walked away...then i left. i went home sobbing like a litle kid people staring but i didnt care. i got home packed more stuffs when i notice a long message opened and i went to read it, it was personal yet funny..then i got an envelope saying my name on it i opened it and a ring fell off..i couldnt read the letter it was too much..maybe when im on the plane lol im going to miss AKIRA most..T_T

- Because i was sleeping over tonight at Kristin's, so her mom and Marlena picked me up this time i had to say bye to my little brother, sis in law and my older brother...damn..i was dying inside it didnt help my parents called too it was too much i didnt know leaving would cause these much SAD FACES i was heartbroken..

I LOVE YOU GUYS~ and I WILL DO MY BEST! sankyuuu for everything MINNA-SAN~...::ish crying::

Canadian celebrity

2008-04-21T08:21:18Z

Well...I was working overnight when actor "Michael Seater" from "Life with Derek" came to work and order foods with his friends i knew it was him because he looked and sounded familiar and his friends joked around saying "do you know who he is if you do, do we get our FOODS for FREE?" and my respond was "Yes I do know him but it dont work like that sorry!" and then they all laughed Micheal/Derek says "I like this girl!" and smiled dang..if only that was KAME i would have melted like crazy but it wasnt =( demo i dont know why meeting someone from here isnt the same as meeting another celebrities from different country. So I didnt asked for pictures or signature, although it was was FUN i guess i get a hug and we shook hands lol. Actually this was my second time meeting Canadian celebrities the first one was some of the cast of "Degrassi" lol. who would have thought they all eat "McDonalds late at night" haaha.

misery...

2008-04-08T05:29:11Z

All i know is that im officially leaving to go to JAPAN end of this month! and thought it would go smoothly and fast...but I GUESSED WRONG! this month ish driving me NUTS and i mean NUTS! arghhh..these are my ups and downs and im not happy about it either...

UPS
- I GOT MY VISA!
- I GOT A LAPTOP (and i named it "KAZUYA")
- IM LEAVING SOON
and thats about it.

DOWNS
- parents left for business trip meaning no money was left behind
- NO HOURS on my other JOB (abercrombie)
- needs to pay phone bills and my VISA
- NO updates on my FIC!! (crazylove)
- and I injured my shoulder! (really painful)
- and TODAY I got suspended on my other job for being 30 mins. LATE
so basically I'm BROKE as FUCK!.

why the FUCK now...and oh most important thing IM LONELY!

highlight of the day*

2008-03-25T12:15:38Z

RANDOM but IT MADE ME LAUGH! KAT-TUN SAIKOU~ <33. It's the HIPS haaha.